I have to admit that I am experiencing some anxiety about starting chemo. I know it is a necessary evil but it makes me nervous none the less. The surgery was easy. I knew I would be asleep during the messy part. Chemo is different. I am going to be wide awake while they pump a toxic cocktail in my body. I am sure once it starts I will get in to the right frame of mind, put on my big girl panties and just deal with it. Until then, I will freak out a little.
Tomorrow I meet with the oncologist. I have heard that he is one of the best but not to expect him to hold my hand. I am ok with that. If I want warm and fuzzy I will wear slippers. Hopefully by this time tomorrow I will have survived my first chemo treatment and will be sharing with you all that it was no big deal. Cake.